I would say around 2009, I was on the phone chatting with a friend of mine regarding my quest to find another job using my college education and get out of the place which I am actually still working at. Well, he said on the phone “What is your passion?” I remember rolling my eyes at the time since that’s what I was trying to pursue ten years earlier (and one of the reasons I worked on all those local and state political races that gave me plantar fascittis). The truth is, by that point I felt that well, it wasn’t worth it. Yet, after that comment, not only did I apply for a few jobs at least until 2013 (and again last year with similar results it turned out), but still dabbled in what had become just a hobby, like gardening; writing stuff.
Anyway, the reason I write all of the above is to provide some background for the following. It seems that, despite everything, I am still passionate about my writing; at least creative writing. I say this because who in their right mind would take time off from the job that pays the bills a few hours early so he could hop on the freeway before four to drive all the way down to Stow Ohio (which is at least 45 minutes away) to read this manuscript he’s been working on for no real reason at A Writer’s Life NEO Read and Critique Meeting? As it turned out, I did and I don’t regret it which even more surprising.
The group met on Thursday and usually that is not a good day for me being in the week but I happened to have taken the next day off and it was a nice sunny day to do all that driving on I-271 and Route 8 so why not for once? After all, I haven’t been able to go to the Saturday meeting held once a month all year.
The point about doing something is the feeling as if you are getting something out of it. It also helps if you feel like you are producing something worthwhile. When I helped out with Transit-Oriented Development Committee in the mid 90’s worked on say, the Sherrod Brown Campaign in 2006 or took those screenplay courses at the Cleveland Playhouse around the same time, I had that feeling. Now, I have to force myself to find the time to sit at a Ward Club meeting where I have to listen to other people talk or decide if I want to spend $196 of my own money to attend a planning and zoning workshop or not (instead I used most of that money to clean my gutters, better investment I think). The fact is, for more than a decade I have just drifted and the few times I tried to change that scenario failed to lead anywhere. Despite the pros and cons, and what people may think, I write. Will I be able to take it to the next level? Well, knowing my track record, probably not. However, Thursday proved that I am still passionate about something and that’s important